i miss you!

"He told me, his tired of waiting. He has no idea that I am tired than he was. Tired of waking up without him, tired of sleeping in my bed without him at my side. I am tired of crying when I am down bcoz YOU are not here to keep my spirit alive. I am tired bein' away from YOU! I want you so bad. I miss you so much. :( " iloveyou

Happy Valentines My Labs!

It's better be late than never. Never forgotten it's a hearts day few days ago, Happy Valentines Labs ko.

Celebrating hearts day without you is very hard, seeing couples happy together everywhere. Knowing that I'll still count many more days to be with you on the day of hearts, the day of LOVERS.

I'm used to kiss you everyday, now even touching your lips it's a dream. I wan't to wishper to your ear how much I miss you, missing someone like you makes my heart ache.

Distance is our fate today, don't know how long are we gonna pray and dream for each other to stay togther and live forever.

I wanna be home, I wanna be with you.

I love you not only when it's hearts day, I love you everyday and forever.

I Love You Labs Ko!
I Love You Kirk Ko!

his BIG! my BUGOY is BIG now!

Can't imagine how many days, months, years I'm gone besides him. Never thougt days turn so fast, never thought my SON grew so fast.

2 years, yeah! 2 years not being with HIM makes me crazy. From the moment I left Him for reason until now, I still want HIM. I want to be a MOTHER.

Can't help but to cry, seeing pictures of HIM knowing that I'm away from HIM.

Compilations of Kirk Zeus recent pictures.

I MISS YOU!

I LOVE YOU!

I'M HERE, i wanna be home again...

guys... guys... guys... guys...

im really here...

i wanna be home again,

how i miss being at home in blogging...

i really do.

falls alarm, i thought i lost my blog again...

im here, goin back on track again.

for almost 3 months im gone,

can't wait to share more stories...

see you here guys

"MORE OFTEN"!!!

PAIN is subject of L-O-V-E

Love can be in many ways, love can be subject in our lives. Love can be so powerful, love can rule us. But L-O-V-E can give PAIN.

Have you ever wonder you’ll be hurt when you love? Of course not, all we know everything will be perfect when you love someone, and love can give us happiness in the end.

How will you say, that’s my “MAN” if he hurts you so bad? How will you explain he’ll not leave you, when he always walked away? How will you say, he loves you much, if your expecting nothing from him? How will you say, “please stay” if he doesn’t love you anymore?

How will you move on, in his LOVE? How?

Love causes more pain. The more we love, the more we get hurt. The question, are we still ready to get hurt and to love more? It’s only YOU’RE HEART can say that, it’s only YOU who can say… I CAN STILL LOVE despite of PAIN you caused me.

Set your HEART when you love again, don’t expect too much. Expect more friendship reletaionship between you and the guy, but don’t expect that he’ll LOVE YOU as you wish in him. Don’t expect that everything will be perfect ‘coz it can’t be perfect.

To you my dear friend, always remember… once in your life you cried because you LOVED someone. And now, I know your waiting for someone who will give LOVE to you, and I know your waiting. Just dont forget, “it can’t be love with out pain”.

Forget your past and learn for it, gurl.

Here’s a poem for you, you inspired me today and I wrote something from my heart for you. ‘Ope you like it.

PAIN

Looking back the memoirs, feeling so bliss
Knowing you is my gladness
Remembering all the days with you is my happiness
Loving you can be payless

I thought you’d love me, as me
Never thought I could be so empty
I consider You and Me will be true
Now I’m falling out of blue

We promised to say, I do
But where are you, now that I need you?
We promised that ‘till the end
We’ll sleep in one bed

How can I say nothing from you?
If I still love you
But what can I do?
I am not your beau

How can I move, if you’re still in my groove?
Thinking how can I live so freely, knowing that I’m so uneasy?
I want to be free and to love again
I’ll take this as a subject, to not fall out of love again


-vErAdiK-

daan lang ako...

just a quick post!

its been a while since my last post, i know that was last few days. I want to update regulary but my work makes me busy and tired. I am very sorry to you guys, haven't visited your blogs and leave some messages.

right now, after making this very short post, i'll be going to bed already. Feeling so tired, wanna have some rest.

just drooping here to say to y'all...



Myspace Funny Hello Graphics


have a nice week ahead!!

be back soon!

INLAB ako kay LABs KO "anibersary special"

As what I've said, feeling inlab nanaman ang mode ko. It's because, papalapit na ang special day namin ni labs ko. Don't know pag dumarating ung araw na yun, bakit ang saya ko? Bakit na e-exicte ako? Bakit kinikilig ako? Ewan ko ba, isa lang siguro ang sagot. Inlab ako kay Labs Ko.

It's been a year, ay! years, years, years, years, years... ilang years un? ganun na katagal ko siyang mahal. Sa limang taon na yan, hindi ko masasabi sa umpisa pa lang nang relasyun namin ay may pag-ibig na kami sa isat-isa.

Hanggat sa lumago ang isang monthsary... ikalawang monthsary... unang anniversary... ika tatlong anniversary hanggang umabot sa ika limang anniversary, dun ko pa lang masasabi na hindi instant LOVE ang naramdaman ko, hindi LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT but our LOVE REALLY GROWS day by day until now, we feel like we just knew each other, knowing ourselves more and learn more with our relationship especially now, were in long distance relationship.

Me and Mark was started dating since, mid of August 2003. Kilala ko na siya nuon pa, sa isang village lang kami naka-tira at isang maliit na kalye lang ang pagitan nang mga bahay namin. Nakikita ko na siya dati pa, I know na si Mark siya, and he knew ako si Vera but we never talked. Not interested with each other.

I was 17yrs old and Mark was 19 when we first met, I met Mark, face to face sa jeepney...hehehe, yong common friend namin ang reason why I met him. And don't know that was the start of everything. I can still remember what was the exact date/time/place when we first met. It was Tuesday, between 8:30 to 9:00am sa jeepney... before ako papasok nang school nung araw na yun nung nakasabay ko siya sa jeep, tinawagan niya ako sa phone nung tanghaling un... dun na nag simula ang lahat.

Almost 1 month we constantly dating, after a month I decided to continue our relationship as friends to more than friends.

to be continue...

featured song: Because Of You by Kyla

Is it Febuary yet? nah, too long to wait for Valentines Day. But for this week, my blog would be like celebrating "hearts day". You'll know the reason why I feel like soooooo inlove, soon you'll know. :)

For the introduction, our featured song of the week, Because Of You by Kyla. This song means a lot to me, a lot. A special song given by special someone, 5 years ago.

So corny to think, but so sweet for real.

Yeah, Because Of You... Because Of You.

Because Of You, I learned how to LOVE.

Because Of You by Kyla

If ever you wondered if you touched my soul, yes you do
Since I met you I'm not the same
You bring life to everything I do
Just the way you said hello
With one touch I can't let go
Never thought I'd fall in love with you

CHORUS
Because of you, my life has changed
Thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

Sometimes I get lonely and all I gotta do is think of you
You captured somethin' inside of me
You make all my dreams come true
It's not enough that you love me for me
You reached inside and touched me internally
I love you best explains how I feel for you

CHORUS
Because of you, my life has changed
Thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame

I'll tell the world it's because of you

My life has changed
Thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

BRIDGE
The magic in your eyes
True love I can't deny
When you hold me I just lose control
I want you to know that I'm never letting go
You mean so much to me, I want the world to see
It's because of you

CHORUS
Because of you, my life has changed
Thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

My life has changed
Thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

Lakeshore Babe...

I thought, I could be a couched potato for just one day. Actually, last Saturday I don't have really plan to go out, time to take a break for consecutive outing, time to clean up my messy room and prepare for my next outing the following day, Sunday. hehehe

I don't have any appointment at all, no plan to go out with friends. I woke up early but I was lazy to stand up and do my things, I just listen the music first day in the morning ang stayed up in bed, day dreaming I guess.

I don't have any idea my Tita has their own plan, she just let me know an hour before we left. As a result, we went to Lakeshore, Toronto.

It was a hot day but no one can stop us. We set up our stuffs and all then enjoy the day. There's also an air show, that was pretty cool, amazing air tricks.

For the past weekend, I was toasted already, toasted by the sun. But I already love the lake here, and wanted to play like a kid in the cool water of the lake.

Lovin' the summer. Lovin' it!

am waiting for your call...

Isang buwan narin akong ganito. Di mapakali pag ikay iniisip, di makatulog sa gabi sa sobrang pag iisip sa 'yo. Kapag wala nang laman ang utak ko ikaw agad ang susulpot, minsan ayaw na kitang isipin dahil akoy na hihirapan na. Ngunit kahit anong rason at iwas ko sa 'yo di ka nawawala sa aking isip. Habang tumatagal akoy nahihirapan.

Isang buwan na ang nakalipas nung sagutin kita, at isang buwan narin akong ganito. Di ma-intindihan ang sarili sa tuwing na iisip ka. Laging nag lalaro sa aking isipan kung may dapat ba akong ikatakot simula nung sinagot kita? May kelangan ba akong malaman? Kung meron man yun, sayo ko lang dapat itanong yun dahil ikaw at ikaw lang ang makakapag sabi nang lahat nang sagot sa bawat katanungan ko.

Wala akong idea sa lahat nang pangyayari basta ang alam ko kampante ako nung sinagot kita, kahit minsan iniisip ko kung naging tama ba sa lahat nang bagay na sagutin ka. Wala akong pagsisisi sa 'yo ang gusto ko lang marinig ka at malaman ang katotohanan. Ang mga katotohanang sagot sa mga tanong dito sa puso at isip ko.

Maraming nag tatanong bakit ako kinakabahan pag dating sa 'yo. Simple lang ang sagot, ayaw kong makita ko ang sarili kong nasasaktan, ayaw kong makita na talo ako dahil masakit yun. Mahirap bang intindihin yun?

Kelan ako magiging ganito? Kelan ka tatawag at kausapin ako? Kelan ko malalaman ang sagot na matagal ko nang inaasam na kukumpleto nang buhay ko? Kelan? Kelan? Ang sagot, di ko alam.

Alam ko malapit ka nang mag paramdam, alam ko parating na ang mga sagot na bumabagabag sa akin. At sana maging maganda ang resulta, sana di ako nabigo sa 'yo.

Am waiting for your call...

And I hope, as we talk soon... I can put smile on my face.

I just want to know, and I'm hoping that...............................

I PASSED THE NACC EXAM!

Hanggang ngayon wala paring tawag from school sa amin, If we did or we did not pass the licensure exam. I know, it's either this week or next week is the result.

I hope I/WE PASSED.

BEST and COOL ride ever...

Akala ko sa isang tao ko lang mararamdaman ang feeling na 'to with my fiancee, kaya nga nagkaroon kami nang paka gwapito, makulit na junior "Kirk Zeus" kasi naramdaman ko ang BEST and COOL ride ever wit him. Hoy, bashtush yon ah... nyahahaha. *labyu labs koh!* *labsyu kirk koh!*

Di nga, last Saturday as what I've said pumunta kmi nang Canada's Wonderland sumama ako sa isang grupo with my friends, mas pinili kong mag bayad nang $37.00 for the entrance kesa sumama sa lakad nang Tita, Tito and pinsan ko na libre ako. At di nga ako nagkamali nang pinuntahan, indeed I enjoy the day.

For the first time in the history of veradik, I dare to wear 2 piece...buwahahaha, at first ilang pa ako pero nung nakita ko ang paligid ko na nag susuot nang 2 piece kahit maitim ang lahat sa kanya at kahit lumba-lumba na siya... di na ako nahiya maglakad-lakad na naka 2 piece kung iisipin mas maganda pa katawan ko sa kanila at yun nga kinarir ko ngang bonggang-bonga.

Ako ang tipong babae na, kahit maliit ang katawan at payat na kala mo malnourish na parang di kumakain pero malakas ang loob. Malakas ang loob sa pag sakay nang kung anong-anong rides..kahit ano pa ito kalaki at kung gaano ka nito pinahihirapan habang sakay nito. Kahit pina-ikot ikot at itinatapon na parang walang paki-alam kung may hininga kapa pagkatpos mong sakyan. Tuloy parin ang payat at magandang Vera sa pag sakay.

Sa sobrang hilig ko sa rides, pati ang pinaka kinatatakutan nang ilang tao na sakayan pinlit ko ang sarili ko na sakyan ito...kahit sinasabi nilang "can you do it?" ang sagot nang payat na magandang Vera "of course I can" kahit obvious na kumakalabog na ang dibdib ko sa kaba... kung pwde aatras na lang... pero hindi ganun si Vera, bonggang bonga...go parin ang payat at magandang Vera sa ride na ito.

BEST and COOL ride ever...

THE BEHEMOTH

This is the LARGETS, WIDEST and LONGEST rollercoaster ever made in Canada. The first 2 pictures was from the website of Canada's Wonderland. And the pictures below was taken by me.

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG..... SSSSHHHHIIIIITTTT, SSSHHHIIITTTT, SSSHHHIIITTT, WWWHHOOOAAAHHH, WWWHHHOOAAAHH, AAAAHHH, AAAHHH, OOOHHH, OOOOHHHH,WWWWEEEEEEE,WWWEEEEE!!!! yan lang ang nasabi ko habang akoy nakasakay sa BEHEMOTH na yan, hndi lang isang beses ko yan na sabi... hindi ko mabilang kung ilang beses ko na isigaw ang mga katagang yan, basta ang alam ko para akong nililipad sa ride na yan, pag dating sa finish line... isa lang nasabi ko, BEHEMOTH ROCKS!

BEST and COOL ride ever... see you next year! babalikan kita.

long distance relationship...

Being alone here, away from someone you loved makes me crazy as ever. Yeah, I need to be physically, mentally and emotionally strong, even be wise in every temptations come along.

I can't deny the fact my emotions almost eat me. I can say I am weak, weak in a sense I easily fall in love to someone who used to be sweet and cares for me. I got so weak every time a guy put his emotions in me, it's so hard to put my weak emotions to someone else 'coz it's not right and never be right. Sweetness is one of my weakness 'coz I am a sweet person, it's hard to stop when both sweet individual meet together.

Those are just simple struggles of mine, having long distance relationship for about a year now. I'm not saying that I am beautiful, hot and attractive but when it comes to temptations they are all at my side it may be physically or emotionally.

It's so hard to fight all of those, it's hard to motivate your self when lonliness strikes you.

Every single day of our relationship I always think that everything will be fine, that we will be together so soon as a family. That all our hardships, sacrifices will turn into happy ending.

Ohhh, I want to share a poem composed by -vErAdIK-.

I made this poem out of this image caught by my camera at the bus terminal.

Kiss

Why I can’t do this?
To have a simple kiss
Eager to take a risk
Just to have a kiss

Kisses from your lips
Make me in the midst
Touch my lips
To sense the bliss

Kiss me; not in my cheeks
Instead in my lips
Strawberries are my lips
Sweet kisses from my tips

Let my lips tease
To make you freeze
Baby, say please
Just to have a kiss

-vErAdIK-

Happy weekend guys...

award award award

Oi, nakatanggap ako nang isang parangal. Nagmula ang parangalna 'to sa isang kaibigan dito sa blogosphere, to you my dear SHE, thanks for giving me this award I appriciate it.

I'll share this award to all my "blog adiks". Though only keyboards our ways to communicate with each other, seriously, I am happy to meet y'all guys.

To all my "blog adiks" love y'all guys.

19th day of the month!

Happy 59th Monthsary Labs Koh!!

I DEMAND for my pasalubong...

Finally, dumating na ang visitors visa nang lola and lolo ko for almost a couple of months processing and waiting. They were so excited to go here, they want to see the snow as always.

They'll be here hopefully, in the middle of September and they are planing to stay here until December, after my lolo's birthday. I hope and pray, kaya nila mag stay na nang ganun ka tagal dito aside from the weather and temperature, alam kong maninibago sila.

September is the first month of Fall, expecting that month will be so windy and not so cold. And for another reason, kung kaya ba nilang mag tagal dito na hindi sila ma BORED, coz I know how it feels... masyadong depressing ang atmosphere sa Canada pag dumating na ang tag-lamig... you can't see the sun rise in the morning and you can't see the sun is setting down in the afternoon. You can't see any people walking around outside, playing in the park, you can't see anyone unless, your going to the mall... jan mo makikita ang lahat nang tao, making themselves busy.

Nevertheless, they are so excited to be here... kung puwede nga lang kahapon, ngayon sila pupunta ginawa na nila... but as what I've said to my dearest lola and lolo, they need to consider the TIME and the WEATHER here... baka kasi at the end of their vacation hindi sila masaya because they feel BORED, para sa paboriting apo nila... I don't wanna feel them the word BORING, matanda na sila and who knows, but I'm not praying... this is the first and the last vacation nila sa Canada... I told them, kelangan ma enjoy nila ang pag bisita nila dito.

On the other hand, they are asking me kung "anong gusto kong pasalubong", paboritong apo e, hihihi. Hmmm, well ala nman masayadong demand ang Vera, an dami rin kasing Pilipino Foods. Konting-konti lang naman ang hinihingi ko, example... Polvoron and Popcorn nang Goldilocks, pinadala ko rin ang iba kong damit na iniwan ko sa Pinas, nag pa-bili rin ako nang tri-band na cellphone and roaming na sim, and I requested to send recent family pictures, recent pictures of KIRK ZEUS and a gift from my fiancee, dahil 5th anniversary namin sa Sept. 19...

Can't wait my lola and lolo to be here... oh, speaking of my lola... HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOLA! birthday nya ngaung Sunday, 17.


Before I forgot, and be out for 2 days camping... ok lang, makalimutan ang lahat nang na-mention na pasalubong, kung puwede lang sana isama at para makita ko na sila once and for all... I DEMAND FOR MY PASALUBONG!!!

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MY FAMILY...

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especialy, MY BABY...

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KIRK ZEUS

I'll be off for Saturday and Sunday, another summer adventure. I'll be out for 2 days camping. Updates after the camp.

HAPPY SAFE WEEKEND Y'ALL!!

long distance relationship...

Everybody knows who that guy (Mark) is in my life. Everybody knows how much I loved him as much as he do. Everybody knows that I'm so into him. But everybody doesn't know how much I missed being intimate with Mark for the past 1 yr and 7mons.

I'm not stupid to say, I didn't miss Mark. If I have one chance, one wish tonight... my wish is to have ONE-NIGHT-STAND with him.

ONE-NIGHT -STAND
(vErAdIk)

Kelan kita huling nakita?
Alam ko pa ba ang iyong itsura?
Kelan ko ulit masisilayan ang iyong mukha?
Sana kahit isang gabi man lang, makita kita.

Kelan kita huling nakausap?
Kagabi lang diba?
Tila parang ang layo mo kapag kausap kita.
Kahit isang gabi man lang, makausap kita nang harapan.

Kelan kita huling kinagat?
May marka pa ba ang iyong braso?
Hanggang ngayon nangigigil parin ako.
Sana kahit isang gabi man lang, hayaan mo akong kagatin ka.

Kelan kita huling pinasaya?
Palagi naman diba?
Ang sarap nang pakiramdam na lagi kang masaya
Sana kahit man lang isang gabi, mapasaya kita dahil kasama mo ako.

Kelan kita huling pina-iyak?
Wag mo sabihing madalas.
Hindi ko kayang paiyakin ka mahal ko.
Sana kahit isang gabi man lang, magawa kitang pa-iyakin sa tuwa.

Kelan kita huling nakayakap?
Kasing higpit parin ba tulad nang dati ang yakap mo?
Gusto ko maramdaman ang yakap mo araw-araw.
Sana kahit isang gabi man lang, mag kayakap tayo sa dilim.

Kelan kita huling na halikan?
Kagabi lang diba? Goodbye kiss sa telepono.
Hindi sapat ang lahat, kulang.
Sana isang gabi man lang maramdaman ko ang labi mo sa labi ko, na tila ayaw mag pa-awat.

Kelan kita huling nakasama sa dilim?
Kilala mo pa ba kung sino tayo sa dilim?
Hinahanap ko ang init nang katawan mo, sa gabing malamig sa kinaroroonan ko.
Kahit isang gabi man lang, magkasama tayo sa dilim, magkayakap at masaya.

Kelan kita huling minahal?
Walang segundo na hindi kita minahal, walang araw na hindi ikaw ang laman nang puso ko.
Dahil ikaw at ikaw ang pag-ibig ko.
Sana kahit isang gabi man lang, masabi at maipakita ko sayo kung gaano kita ka mahal.

friendship day...

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!

To all my dear friends,happy friendship day to all of you.

Making a post here is not enough to say how much I am happy to know you as my friends, this is one of my way to express my love and gratitude for coming into my world.

It's not important who are you, where we met and how we met as long as, you've been part of me and tressured by me as my dear friends.

I won't mention any names to be fair, you know who you are.

IKAW YUN KAIBIGAN!

note:

sorry guys, i havn't seen you for a while... just got busy, busy of outdoor activities "summer galore" and for not updating.

if my mind and body is set, i'll be updating and posting... i'll share with you my "long weekend".

as of now, just got home an hour before this post... and so tired. i'll leave y'all early and see you tomorrow for my updates.

nytie nytie guys...

GUILTY!! no comment... II

I thought his reaction/objection end with one message in my cbox, that was the part 1 I guess.

2 Aug 08, 08:20

papa marko: mag ayus ka talaga dyan..naga worrie talaga ako sayo bka ano na ginagawa mo dyan..pero kung ano man yan ikaw na bahala..suportahan taka..ilang buwan na lng malapit na mag kita na tayo..bakit may gina

2 Aug 08, 08:21

papa marko: gina hanap ka pa bang iba.may kalandian kpala..ngaun ko lng yan nalaman na sinabi mo,wag ka ganyan nag kalayo lng tayo ganyan kna..luv u mama

Aug 08, 08:23

papa marko: naka back seen kapa..ano yan tempting?loko lng.u know na wat to do..may tiwala namn ako sau.ingat na lng palagi.lam ko namn na maganda ang mama tine koh kya ko ginusto..luv u mama

After all this messages... I will shut my big mouth, it's not because I'm guilty of anything. Seriously, I dont have any guilt, it's just I dont want this small silly scenario will be the reason of our LQ.

I'll try to call him today, and explain.

HAPPY WEEKEND GUYS!

GUILTY!! no comment...

Di pa natapos ang araw nang biyernes sa akin pero may nakakaloka nang nangyari. As always, 5:30 am gising na ako kahit madaling araw na ako natutulog, nakasanayan na nang katawan ko magising nang ganyang oras.

As usual, every friday tinatawagan ko labs Marko ko, dahil every weekend di ako mahahagilap dito sa bahay. Passed 10:00am Canada time, tinawagan ko siya... we talked for about more than an hour hanggang sa maubos ung $2.50 na phonecard ko.

Okay naman ang conversation namin... himala nga e, alang LQ. Okay naman daw sila and my baby. Ayun kahit ano ano lang ang pinag uusapan, labyu dito; labyu jan... mishoo labs; mishoo u too mama... yang mga ganyang tipo na conversation lang that makes LDR works.

"You have 60sec. more" -- sabi nang operator. Pag yan na ang maririnig namin madalian na ang usapan dahil di mo mamalayan wala kana sa linya in a minute. As we end up our conversation, nag paalam ako sa kanya na I will spend my weekend sa house nang friend ko and siya naman nag paalam na ipapasyal niya daw bugoy namin si Kirk, at the end isa lang ang point YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO, that line means a lot... linya pa yan nang dadi ko na ngayon ginagamit na namin ni Mark sa isat-isa.

That was the end of our conversation and I thought maganda na yung conversation namin. I was wrong again, lagi na lang ako sapul. hahaha

I found my self GUILTY, yeah GUILTY.

This is all about finacee Mark reaction sa last post ko "frustrated Macho Chaser". Yah, as in object to the honor talaga ang drama nya... wahaahaha.

I know fiancee Mark, knows bout my blogging habbit and I know minsan dumadalaw siya, nakikibasa at nagkokomento. Ang mali ko lang sa sobrang kompyansa ko akala ko bibihara lang siya dumadalaw, e kasi nga di naman siya nakakapag net nang madalas dahil busy sa trabaho, without knowing napapadlas na pla ang dalaw niya to read at mag react bout it.

Di ko naman kasi sinasabi sa kanya bout my post, gusto siya ang makakabasa mismo and I don't have fears kung nababasa niya kasi ala naman akong maling ginawa, kung ano man yung na ipost ko that's ME, walang labis; walang kulang...kaya kung mababasa niya ay kalandian, ako rin yun...wahahaha. Seriously, dapat alam na niya na may landi factor fiancee nya... hehee, pro as what I've known I AM NOT VULGAR in my post here, dba?

Natatawa lang kasi ako, my lasy post "frustrated Macho Chaser" is all about my dad and how I was sad and frustrated when dadi loose his almost perfect body and how I love macho guys. Sinamahan ko lang nang konting landian para di maging boring post ko.

But I feel guilty, when I saw fiancee Mark reaction/objection and so sa cbox ko... Akalain mong biglang dumalaw at nataon pa na ang post ko ay medyo may landian effect, and mind you guys... I've mentioned something pa like this...

... kaya kung sino ka man at alam mong may dating ka for me, pakilala ka naman oh... before I'll say I DO, nyahahaha... naku, ayan lumandi na, ala naman si Mark sa paligid. lolz

Can you see, caught in the act ang bruhang adik sa kalandian, kung hindi ba naman ako gaga. But anyways, wala yun sa akin, no big deal... I just express what I want, di yun pangangaliwa huh!?

Eto ang shocking reaction ni finacee Mark... copy paste ko na lang from my cbox:

1 Aug 08, 11:30papa marko: ikaw bantay ka lng..ano yang gna pantasya mo dyan...ingatka lng sa kin pag maka usap kita..wag ka ganyan pangit tingnan relax ka lng sa ganyan bagay..luv u mama ingat palagi..!!!relax

Oh dba? kakaloka ang komento nang mahal ko. Na isip ko tuloy kung tatawag ako sa lunes, malamang sermon abot ko. Jusko, kakaloka ka labs ko...

Para kay labs Marko,

Sa lahat nang yan, walang makakatalo sayo. Dahil kung sila ang pinagpapantasyahan ko sa araw, IKAW naman ang pinagpapantasyahan ko sa pagtulog at sa pag gising ko sa umaga.

Your always in my mind, kaya wag kanang mag selos jan...mag palaki kana lang nang katawan jan para pagumuwi ako... sulit ang pagtitiis ko nang dalawang taon.

Nagmula kay labs Vera

Guilty... guilty! no cmment

frustrated MACHO CHASER

Oh yeah, I am a certified frustrated macho chaser, wahahaah. How did that happen? hmmm, kahit ako di ko ma-explain, malabo parin sa akin why i loved macho men. I have some reasons though, hehehe.

Macho macho men... ooohhh love 'em. One perfect reason why I do love hot guys, kasi malandi ako, whoaaaa. Nop nop, heres the real reason.

Way back early 90's, when my dad started going to gym and put his body into it. Dalawa pa lang kami nang kapatid ko nun, ala pa yung bunso namin when my dad constantly improving his body built, kasi nung kinasal sila ni mami ang payatot nang dadi ko, as in ang payat. Kaya siguro nadagdagan kami nang bunsong kapatid dahil my dad really improved.

I witness all his improvement kahit bulilit pa ako nun, I saw my dad's good well shaped. No artificial was used, pure gym and diet. Basta I admire my dad that time, parang ang safe namin mag pamilya kapag kasama siya because of his astgin look, basta macho dadi ko.

That was temporary, yeah! I thought my dadi will be like that forever but I guess I was wrong, when I started to noticed that he was going down, to the point all he has in his life was gone. As everything was vanished his body built was gone too.

Try to imagine may dadi when he was in good shaped, macho the ideal macho for me turns all gone, look at the recent picture of my dadi... lower side of my page, merong pic jan dadi ko. Diba? nakaka-frustrate??

Vices... vices... yan ang sumira nang buhay nang dadi ko. Kayo na bahala mag isip kung ano un. Until now, I am asking why did it happen to my dadi.

Anyways, that was the past and I know I can never bring back the time to fixed it. Only my dadi can fix his life.

On the brighter side, where still a happy family at the end. Ang tibay lang siguro nang pamilya namin, through all those years na naghirap kami, na akala ko di na kami makakabangon from it, heto kami ngayon still ONE FAMILY... nadagdagan pa nang 2 members... my fiancee Mark and my son Kirk.

Yun siguro ang reason bakit madali akong ma-atract sa mga macho or may hugis ang katawan. Because I was so sad at nang hinayang sa nangyari sa dadi ko.



Oh, wait wait... di yan dadi ko ha? Yan ang lalaking nag papalaki nang mga mata ko at nag papainit nang tenga ko, wahahaha. Hollywood actor, Daniel Craig.

Whoaaaa, can you see his body? Wooot so hot, dba? Yan ang perfect body built para sa akin, I want to meet a guy na ganyan or similar to his body, kaya kung sino ka man at alam mong may dating ka for me, pakilala ka naman oh... before I'll say I DO, nyahahaha... naku, ayan lumandi na, ala naman si Mark sa paligid. lolz

I hope before summer ends makakakita ako nang macho sa beach, wahahaha.

Just dreaming pipz, hehehe. I am contented with finacee Mark.